putting the 'b' in subtle...

Thursday, September 26, 2002

 
Kind of hurts when someone forgets your birthday. You know?
Carrie 4:27 PM

Wednesday, September 25, 2002

 
Wednesday, September 25th - TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!! So here are some horoscopes I found:

"IF YOUR BIRTHDAY IS TODAY:
According to the planets you are capable of so much more than you have done so far and this is the year when you will start to live up to your true potential. Decide what it is you most want to accomplish, draw up a long-term plan, believe you will succeed, and don't stop working until you do."

"Happy Birthday: You will have the energy and the fortitude to do whatever you set your mind to this year. You will find yourself faced with a situation that will require you to be disciplined, making the right choices even if it isn't exactly what you had in mind. Set goals that are in reach and be honest with yourself about your capabilities. Your numbers are 3, 7, 22, 29, 34, 37."

"If September 25 is your birthday:
You are studious and gain much as result of meditation. You are spiritual and a firm believer in 'true love.' Pisces, Virgo persons play significant roles in your life, could have these letters in name: G, P, Y. During October, you could get 'caught up' in social whirl. During November, you attend to details and do necessary repair work at home. December will be exciting, featuring travel and variety of experiences."

Well, I kind of like the sound of all of those. I know they can be silly things, but every once in a while, they hit at just the right thing. In a particularly not-so-nice time, in which I've been stressed, very uncertain, and worried at the quite daunting plan I have in store for the next year or two, hearing something like this can be reassuring. Someday I really will get there...
Carrie 1:44 PM

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

 

What Farscape Character are you?

Though I only started watching it this year, I've gotten hooked. Farscape is a great show - help save it!!!
Carrie 1:28 PM

 
What a great night. I went to a Coldplay concert up in Baltimore. They were fantastic. Listening to "The Scientist" on the lawn next to the harbor water, on a beautiful clear night, with the soft breeze blowing my hair - it was just gorgeous. Kinda went off into my own little trancy world - such a beautiful song.

I was just guessing, at numbers and figures, pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress, did not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me, oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails, coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
~Coldplay

Carrie 1:03 AM

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

 
Had quite an unsettling dream last night. My home was being destroyed and it was horrible, not in any way relating to today's anniversary or anything, but by a mass flood and sinking into the opening earth. And nothing we did would stop it and I kept running after my dog, my dog that died while I was in Scotland 2 years ago. Yeah, I woke up just a bit anxious. Well, I feel like I couldn't even put into words feelings about this time a year ago. So all I can really say is that I love you all. Always know that.

Carrie 11:50 PM

Thursday, September 05, 2002

 
Wow, didn't mean to be gone so long

Just had my one year mark at work and my birthday's coming up soon, so I've been thinking a lot lately about this time last year, and I'm kind of amazed at how everything's changed. Though I'm almost positive there have been many, I just can't seem to think of a year where I've had so many things change. It just seems that everything's different now and sometimes I can't even think of how it got this way. The world and our country are different, of course, and I'm not quite sure I actually know quite yet how that has affected me, though little things tell me it has. But I won't go into that, we all know about that and handle it our own way. It's more personal things anyway, that went to making a hell of a year. My job has progressed a great deal, exposing me to people who act in ways I never would have believed, my living situation is completely different, relationships with friends have taken varying and somewhat surprising turns, I know how much more I am determined to get out there and get to my traveling dreams no matter what. I guess I'm learning and realizing more about what I do and don't want, though, rest assured, plenty of uncertainty remains! Then there's 'home' home - my family is different and that's the one that's perhaps the hardest to handle, and it makes me feel like all the things I thought before have all been altered and I'm grasping at what I'm supposed to do. 23 or 14, it hurts just the same.

I guess we really are growing up, as much as it sometimes doesn't feel like it...but in the little places, it's starting to show.

Carrie 12:02 AM